Monday, 21 September 2015

SO SAID - PART TWO

Where to begin? And as I am uncertain about that I will write a few words and see where they take me although I suppose the title of the post has already set the direction

I decided a few days ago to make a book of the blog and am in the process of doing that The title at the present time, unsurprisingly, is 
                                            
                                          SO SAID THE SAP
                                         A BOOK OF THE BLOG
                                 www.sosaidthesap.blogspot.co.uk
                                                PART ONE
                                            
The decision to make the book at this time was influenced by the wish for it to end with the photograph of Vicki Anne Bragan


Saturday, 12 September 2015

MANY THANKS VICKI BRAGAN


Vicki in Moon Over Naikun 
   Below is a recent message from Vicki
'And as one Inuit elder says to male prisoners he works with, "when you're having a struggle, borrow a good memory from your past to sit with while you work out what's next in your life." '

Tuesday, 8 September 2015

TOAST AND TWO EAGLES

There is a reference to white headed birds in the spoken word track REMEMBERING MR TOAST And although at the time of writing I had avoided describing them as bald headed eagles I did know what they were and was aware that they alighted on places other than the highest trees

I now have some recent photographic proof of two of those 'other places' 


                                             Eagle having a paddle


                                                        
                                                     Eagle on a telegraph pole 

The words from the track which can be heard on Bandcamp belong on Haida Gwaii - which was the birth place of Mr Toast - and they belong particularly to the stretch of road heading south from Masset as it approaches the former Bottle and Jug Works, a Pottery in Tlell


There was rain all around outside
The car moved through it like a dream machine
A strong wind tore at the sea
And a memory of you
Tore into the heart of me

And with it came the kind of tears
That feel sore behind your eyes
That you need to cry out until the last one’s gone
That you need to cry out to move on

And I thought I’d let you go
I thought I’d reached a dried-up place
Like a desert in which life’s old past hurts
Would fade and be erased

Then the rain had ceased
And white-headed birds
Re-alighted on the highest trees
The sea had been covered with a sheet of silver foil
And the memory of you became a song for me

And the road was more like a river than a road
It was more like a river than a road

The last line of the words also provided the title for the EP MORE LIKE A RIVER THAN ROAD And REMEMBERING MR TOAST is the second last track on the EP  

The link to the EP is https://sheilakcameron.bandcamp.com/album/more-like-a-river-than-a-road-seven-songs-from-glasgow-and-haida-gwaii

The link to the single track REMEMBERING MR TOAST is 

Thursday, 20 August 2015

THE BEAR, THE BIRD, LOVE AND THE RAIN

The words below belong with the spoken word track - alternatively titled in a previous post as - NOT ALWAYS SAFE TO TOUCH

There's a bear across the river
Eating berries from a bush
If you rush to the kitchen window
You will see him 
I feel I could touch
His soft dark fur
If I reached out but
I must remember
It's not always safe to touch

It isn't safe to touch
Isn't always safe to touch
I would like to reach out but
It's not always safe to touch

There's a very small bird
Feeding from a flower
And if you rush to the kitchen window
You might see it before the shower
Of rain which is falling
Chases it away
Small birds when it's raining
Are inclined to fly away

There's love in my heart
As I tell you all this
A love that wasn't wanted
Less of real and more of myth

There's sadness in my soul
As I exit from this scene
Close my eyes to its beauty
Go back deep into my dream

That one day I will find again
The courage to be free
Of mistaking the real
In what I see

There's a light in the sky now
The rain has gone
And if you rush to be here with me
You'll hear my latest song
Which will tell you I m trying hard
To see what can be seen
And leave the rest to fade away
Fade into that dream
  
Of thinking that the hurts of old
Can always be healed
Can always through love 
Be mended and healed

There's a place in my heart that
Will always be for you
And if you rush to be beside me here
You'll see that it is true

As true as the bird
As the bear
As the rain
As true as I can 
never be
As lost in love again

The bear the bird 
Love and the rain
If you don't get here soon
They'll all have gone away


Wednesday, 19 August 2015

NOT ALWAYS SAFE TO TOUCH

Perhaps this spoken word track is more of a story than a song 
Entitled NOT ALWAYS SAFE TO TOUCH it is very new and has now been uploaded to Bandcamp 

The link is https://sheilakcameron.bandcamp.com/track/safe-to-touch

The image is of a real bear with soft dark fur - as mentioned in the words 


                            Real bear with soft dark fur - as in a dream                      
,
The words were written down in the dark several nights ago and as such they feel more like a gift than something I made up
But I am glad to have got them The only change I made to the words I received was to omit two of them

Later they were recorded on the portable recorder which I have been trying to negotiate since I bought it several years ago And then they were professionally mastered 

This was my first attempt to produce a track of reasonable quality using this particular machine

The title is not set in stone and the words for the track can be found in the next post which uses the alternative of the THE BEAR THE BIRD LOVE AND THE RAIN  

Tuesday, 18 August 2015

LOOKING BACK - TO GOING FORWARD

What is it about the place? I have asked myself the question so many times. This latest looking back is again in obeyance to the notion that doing so is likely to facilitate going forward - which is after all the decreed and generally accepted direction in which to travel

But if I am ever to have any sort of understanding of why I feel so strongly associated with Masset - for somehow it is the town itself which exerts the strongest pull - then I need to linger and to resist the urge to go anywhere but stay with the associated feelings and let them have their say

And paradoxically for that to happen in its own time I need to stop saying more and to move quietly aside while leaving the image below to make its contribution to finding an answer



The photograph was taken from the dock in Masset 
It was here that I first stepped on to the land of Haida Gwaii and it was from this viewpoint just a few days ago that I looked back towards the area of the town where I stayed for the majority of my time there

Monday, 17 August 2015

WALTER - AND THE WREN AGAIN

This post is a crumb of a story in which I have the audacity to make reference to what - for example - Robert Bringhurst describes as a major classical literature 
To quote directly from his Introduction to Raven Travelling: Page One

'In Haida, what we have is nothing less than a major classical literature—one which would be admired worldwide if it were freed from the deadly combination of critical neglect and uncritical awe with which outsiders often respond to Native American intellectual and literary traditions'.


Many other references could be provided - each one likely to enthrall - but that is not the purpose of this post and I want to avoid wandering into an area of knowledge in a way that might imply a lack of respect for the Haida language and culture

For this is just a brief account of what for me was a magical moment - of the sort that comes your way only once in a while and which feels special - although hard to define 
And I accept that my magic may be your mundane 


In the weeks leading up to my journey to Haida Gwaii I chose to use two images of clouds to accompany words which were, for me, of a particularly poignant kind One was of clouds over the Rockies and one was of clouds over Tlell

And with these images still warm in my mind, here is what happened when I was: -

On a bed
With a book
In a room
On an island

The book was Small Birds Cling to Bare Branches: nesting song birds on Haida Gwaii by Margo Hearne

I had the book open at the page preceding the Foreword where, in a frame, was text with the title How Shining Heavens Caused Himself to be Born

It referred to a story told by Walter McGregor of the Sealion town people to J.R Swanton during his visit to Haida Gwaii during the winter of 1900-1901 

And it tells how (and here I am quoting Margo Hearne - with her permission) 'the Creator, Master Carpenter, adopted a child found in a cockleshell by the Chief of Dju's daughter. The daughter and the Creator raised the child together. When the child grew up he created the elements'. 

But the actual words I was reading as the wren flew into the room - a few feet in front of me - before landing on a desk to my right -  were those from the first part of the story (again it is the version as presented in the book by Margo Hearne)

(The youth) went out from his mother's house wearing his wren skin
He said, "Look Mother, look at me."
Then his Mother went out after him.
He sat as broad high cumulus clouds over the ocean. His mother looked.
Then he came in and asked his mother, "Did I look well?"
"Yes, chief my son, you looked well."

And this is how the clouds were created

But before the story ends similar actions involving a blue-jay skin and a woodpecker skin - and their part in creating the sky and the sunset - are described

Much more about the story as told by Walter McGregor can be found on numerous sites but I am choosing to leave the search to those who are genuinely motivated to learn more

However, as someone with limited knowledge of the subject, I admit to having enjoyed reading Matthew Spellberg's article in the Los Angeles Review of Books 
And for this the link is https://lareviewofbooks.org/review/the-epic-art-of-the-haida-mythtellers

Information on J.R. Swanton can be found using the following link https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/John_R._Swanton


With no image of a wren, a very recent photograph of a humming bird (taken on Haida Gwaii) is being presented in its place Considering its size and name it is surely an apt replacement


And for anyone wishing a closer to look at this particular small bird  

Sunday, 16 August 2015

IN FLEW A WREN

A brief comment on my previous use of cloud images. It has been explained by a wren who flew into my room several days ago
There is a story to be told about a story that was told many years ago
And it will be retold in a few days time

Saturday, 15 August 2015

THE HOUSE THAT ONCE BELONGED TO THE MAN WHO INSPIRED THE SONG MR MOON


  

This is the house that belonged to the Scotsman who inspired the song Mr Moon It has apparently been owned by many different people since he decided to return to his native land - and to Edinburgh, the town where he was born, in the late 1980's (?)

The song has been played often on several different radio stations and there is a lyric video on you tube at https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YFe1NSXR8SM 
Also in that version - during the playing of the bridge - there are some words about Alex and an experience he had during the Second World War

They are similar to those which are presented below

This song was written for Alex Rutherford, a Scotsman I knew in Canada, who had fought in Africa during the Second World War After being given the task of shovelling his best friend out of a blown up tank he found himself standing alone in the desert addressing the moon which was particularly clear that night. From then on whenever life was hard for him he would tell the moon about it

There are two versions of the track and both were arranged at a studio in Glasgow Scotland www.cavasound.com One of them features Fraser Spiers on blues harp and I continue to feel honoured that he agreed to work on this song as well as several others

The version without Fraser is the fifth track on the CD CUT FEET AND EMPTY SHOES and if you would like to try it out the link is
https://sheilakcameron.bandcamp.com/track/mr-moon-im-working-against-time

And now having relocated the Fraser Spiers version this has been up-loaded onto Bandcamp separately as a single The link for this one is 
https://sheilakcameron.bandcamp.com/track/mr-moon-with-fraser-spiers-2

Friday, 14 August 2015

THE FORGOTTEN PLATE

Two days after posting WALTER- AND THE WREN AGAIN, a plate, recently forgotten about, is noticed on a shelf alongside some books 
For several years it has been carefully stored in a cupboard but last year it was brought out and used as a container for an assortment of horse chestnuts - some in their cases, some having pushed their way out  - like conkers being born

But memories associated with the plate were immediately aroused It had been a gift from the man spoken of in the comments which accompany the track LOWLANDS AWAY on Bandcamp 

And from some of the text around the rim I was reminded, although I was not altogether certain, that the plate was about the wren 

But what were all the words and what, if anything was underneath them 
And before removing the chestnuts to find out I took a photograph 

'

And after placing the chestnuts in a paper bag I take another photograph



And having got this far I need, for my own reasons, to say that, as far as I am aware, I was not on the look out for more about wrens - for more anything about wrens - although I am open to thinking that information about wrens might have been looking for me

The track LOWLANDS AWAY is not at all polished It has been mastered but not arranged and leaving aside my rather low key performance it is a beautiful song It can be heard on Bandcamp at 
https://sheilakcameron.bandcamp.com/track/lowlands-away

There is nothing more to be said just now about the man who made the gift However I have begun writing about the last time I was with him and hope it will be continued 

The plate was made by John and Jennifer Davies: Potters of Tlell Haida Gwaii

Information on conkers and horse chestnuts can be accessed using the links below
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Conkers

Friday, 31 July 2015

IS THIS ALL I NEED

Most of the time I am content to continue with the activity of writing words in a notebook, rediscovering old lyrics and songs, re-engaging with recent ones and deciding on the songs that, if I had sufficient funds, I would like to arrange to have arranged - albeit with the associated problem of getting the arranger I would like to do the arrangement

And the initial aim of getting some of the material out there and heard has I suppose been achieved Perhaps for myself, I should check up on the various sites and record some of the details of that achievement at this stage of the endeavour But it will not happen soon

I am assisted in my rather lackadaisical attitude by my daily visits to Tony Currie's Radio Six International at www.radiosix.com Because most days he uses one of my songs - at some time during the day or the night - and it has a most desirable and calming affect on how I view my creative exploits 

Also, over recent months I have chosen not to inform PRS of the material which I have written or which has subsequently been played on the radio And I have questioned my seeming lack of drive or interest in doing so The reasons are of an intertwined nature and it seems, as i write this, I am not motivated to untangle them! Although I can say that the main one is probably a lack of interest in what might be achieved

My main interest as far as I can understand it - is to be around should that one good and relevant -to -the -lives -of -others lyric arrive at my door 
To be around to receive it and be able to work on it (without spoiling the gift) and get it worked on by others  - by musicians - who will recognize its value and make it into something special - and that will last

And that I assume is the notion which inspires most makers of songs

Which leads me to mention a song which I hope will get worked on eventually by someone who has worked magic with other songs of mine 
It has been around for a long while but was recently mastered and in the meantime I am considering uploading it as a single acoustic track to Bandcamp 
Indeed all of the above words may only have been written to lead me to where I might say this and do that  

But I do also want to mention a lyric - I suppose it could be called that - which arrived at my door a few days ago 
It is my intention to record it - if it can be managed from this location -as a spoken word track as soon as possible More about this another time

Thursday, 30 July 2015

STILL I LOVE YOU

Towards the end of the post IS THAT ALL I NEED I mentioned a song which I was considering uploading to Bandcamp It was this one, STILL I LOVE YOU

However I then discovered it had not (as I had wrongly asserted) been mastered And during the time I was arranging for this to be done it acquired two pals They are DON'T SIGH (EVEN SLIGHTLY) and MY LOVE IS VELVET Both had been mastered and were just hanging around with nowhere in particular to go 


And the three old love songs- which were recently re-recorded - are now together on Bandcamp 



The way I have set up the tracks on Bandcamp means they can not be downloaded separately 

Tuesday, 28 July 2015

AND



And if you would like a song what better than Frank Sinatra singing COME FLY WITH ME

EXCEPT FOR

The path to the beach

Monday, 27 July 2015

NO MORE- FOR A WHILE


    The beach

IN STEPPED SHARON

See it works! Into the space which was created from dealing with the sadness stepped Sharon - and she came all the way from Australia



And the song that went down a treat was BAD GIRL BLUES 
If you would like to check it out it can be heard on Bandcamp using the link 

IT'S NOT ALL SADNESS

When is a statement never misleading?
My words about my attempts to deal with sadness have misled some who read this blog
I guess they missed the comment in a previous post which suggested that ' love and sadness Often sing in tune'
Love then is also my business and of the two I know which one I prefer to be in  
And as I provided an example of a song which dealt directly with sadness I began looking for an equivalent example of my relationship with love - but there are so many I gave up

Sunday, 26 July 2015

WAKING TO WONDERDOG

Wonderdog from Australia fulfills the dream of my songs being liked by a total stranger Well he has bought lots of them on another occasion but this morning I awoke to find he had purchased OUT THERE SOMWHERE. That is special for me and I am enjoying it to the full. Way to go Wonderdog!

Saturday, 25 July 2015

OUT THERE SOMEWHERE

Forget SAD and SADDER but hold on to SANE

After a delicious coffee at a place I call THE JELLY BEAN (not its real name) an alternative title appeared out of nowhere

The new title for the small group of three tracks which were uploaded onto Bandcamp yesterday (overall playing time only five minutes) is now OUT THERE SOMEWHERE 

But as it took me so long to explain in a previous post why I initially chose the title SAD SADDER and SANE I am choosing not to delete it 

And as you will be aware: in changing the title I have undoubtedly moved on - a bit

PS The link to hearing the three tracks on Bandcamp is https://sheilakcameron.bandcamp.com/album/out-there-somewhere

THE LEATHER CHAIR

The recent comments on sadness were preceded by those I intend to post here today Again not to linger on the subject but as part of giving it its say, acknowledging it, understanding where it came from - in the hope of being somewhat free of its active presence -and possible undercover influence

As an aspiring song writer I am also open to the idea that the act of doing this might not only bring about a change in my relationship with sadness but may change how it chooses to appear in my songs!



Sadness is my business
I don't sell it
I just live it
It came to me some time ago
It walked into my living room
Sat down upon a leather chair
And tuned in to the scene

Others may have noticed it
If so they never spoke of it
That's the way that many like
To be when it's around

Sadness is my business
I don't want it
I just have it
It's there some days when I awake
I give it space to have its say
But since you left
It likes to stay
Reminding me it's nothing new
Whatever I might try to do
Its never far away

Believe me I'm not fond of it
Am fearful it might become
Like some devoted ally
In the tale that must be spun

It's part of what I signed up to
When I appeared out of the womb
And realized that love and sadness
Often sing in tune

Sadness is my business
It finds it's way into my songs
Where, if it has a use at all,
It speaks to those who try
To keep it from their door
Who like a peek but only if
It isn't theirs to own

Sadness is my business
It came to me some time ago
It walked into my living room
Sat down upon a leather chair
And tuned right in to me

Friday, 24 July 2015

TRYING - BUT NOT VERY HARD

Nowadays when I see myself in a mirror, or more alarmingly, reflected in my ipad before the icons appear, I see the kind of woman I would prefer not to know

But in the photograph I am trying out here and on Bandcamp - the Picasa CinemaScope facility has chopped off the top and bottom for me and in the process thankfully removed several chins  As a result, I see someone I might have liked and it makes me wish I had tried harder to do so when I knew her back then




This information - as with all the rest that I have put on this blog may only be of interest to me And if so I have decided that is OK - why not?

But obviously there has also been an underlying wish for it to be of some value - in some way or other - to others And after writing the bit about trying harder to like myself - I wondered if the sentiment expressed might also be of use to someone else Someone who, on this day in July, might consider having another go at liking themselves - just as they are right now
And I might do the same 

And if you would like a song to go with the sentiment expressed what about the old and very sentimental STAY AS SWEET AS YOU ARE 
The links below are for three different versions from You Tube


The first is a 1934 recording by Ambrose and His Orchestra (with a Sam Browne vocal) This is followed by Nat King Cole and the third (and my favourite) is by Ruth Etting

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B8Qrtdt1hxo 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5VQtc2Ajkj4&list=RD5VQtc2Ajkj4#t=47

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uqf872Y__Fs  

If the comments are of no interest I hope you'll like the music

Thursday, 23 July 2015

GIFT FOR A GOOD GIRL

It was probably about the beginning of 2009 when I began to make a determined effort to get some of my songs heard  Until then, on one level, I thought of them as having been put aside while I was involved in a more important activity But I also always felt that if I survived long enough I would want to do something with them

When I eventually returned to them I was not yet free of other responsibilities and the first attempts to get them 'out there' were rather disorganized and hesitant  There was much to learn 

That learning process was accelerated with my introduction to Bandcamp - although this did not happen until 2011  

Bandcamp, of all the sites I have used then and since, provided the kind of facilities which fitted well with my way of doing things Songs could be uploaded as wav files, photographs and text could be easily changed

The payment arrangements on the site are the only ones I have never understood but as I have so far in my life not been interested in obtaining money for what I want and choose to do that was not a problem

When thinking about the songs getting them heard the desirable scenario was one in which a total stranger who knew nothing of me or my work would inadvertently hear one of my songs and like it - a lot  And this has happened many times now

But the purpose of this post is not to provide me with an opportunity to boast - although I am presently not against finding some positives in what I do - the comments are intended to set the scene for the introduction of some statistics from Bandcamp 

In the screen shot below, which I took on Wednesday July 22nd, can be seen how many times the songs on Bandcamp have been visited (they do not always get a complete listen) between April 2011 and July 2015  These are the top ten

And top of the list is  . . . .BAD GIRL BLUES!



Which reminded me that a good friend gave me a gift after hearing the song and thinking - mistakenly - that I was the bad girl in the story  She probably wanted to reassure me that I was not all bad - which of course I knew 
I can however identify closely with some aspects of the bad girl's situation and I do find the lure of life as a blackbird in a little nest with no doors very appealing 

Below is a photograph of the gift I received


The song BAD GIRL BLUES can be heard on Bandcamp using the link below https://sheilakcameron.bandcamp.com/track/bad-girl-blues

Wednesday, 22 July 2015

SAD SADDER AND SANE

Caution: convoluted comment

On deciding to call this post SAD SADDER AND SANE

Once again, I can't be sure which came first. Did I decide to put three tracks together and upload them on Bandcamp - which meant I would need a title and an image? Or did I decide to use the Sap blog to explore the idea of putting three tracks on Bandcamp- which meant I would need a title and an image?


But whichever came first I do know that I had got stuck with the title and if I intended to use it - it would require some sort of explanation  Or I might try to find another title - which for some reason did not appeal. Or I might ask myself the question: do I really need to explain the reasoning behind the choice? And the answer was yes


No one I am sure will dispute that there is a lot of sadness around in the world - and there's not much one can do about much of it  

And, as can be imagined there is loads of information on line about different kinds of sadness Of all I read I liked '
sadness is like a fingerprint - it is unique'  and ' I hate long bus rides. It makes me sad in ways I cannot understand' 


And if you have got this far you may be ruminating on your own particular brand while I get back to the kind of sadness which finds its way into my songs

And that is also a sadness about which, at times, I can't do much 

But I do know that attempting to avoid or deny it can lead to it getting played out - albeit often unconsciously - in ways that can impact negatively on others And that this can create even more sadness - so that is definitely something to avoid whenever possible 

However, acknowledging its existence does not mean I want to dwell on it, dote on it or devote myself to it - I want to understand it best I can, be alert to it and recognize it within myself - whether it be old sadness, new sadness or a confluence of both And along with the acknowledgement comes the hope that by giving it space and opportunity to have its say the prospects for moving on from it - for reaching a more sane and less sad situation -will be improved  

The three combined tracks with the title SAD SADDER AND SANE are very much in line with that intention


So, sadness has its say in the first track  And it gets a further opportunity in the second one  But in the third track the sadness gets left behind and love takes over with the overriding mood being one of tenderness laced with a sense that sanity will eventually prevail 


To be more specific about the tracks: the first is a recent acoustic only version of a song entitled GO ON THEN This is followed by the spoken word track OUT TO THE WILDS (featured in the previous post) and the third and concluding track is the WILD BISCUIT version of WHERE THE LAST TIDE RUNS  


Track three also has the subtitle A SONG OF TLELL and that has dictated the choice of another image of clouds - this time of Clouds over Tlell 



The photograph is by Jennifer Davies of Tlell 

I had been considering the upload and the writing of this post for several weeks The reasons for the delay are many but now that the tracks are out there perhaps, in keeping with my ideas on the subject, it will allow me to leave behind some of the sadness expressed 

The link to hearing the three combined tracks on Bandcamp is
https://sheilakcameron.bandcamp.com/album/out-there-somewhere

PS  For anyone not familiar with my songs -  sadness features in many of them - although it does not always receive direct mention 
Perhaps the song which does address the subject most directly is the one entitled THERE'S AN OLD SADNESS IN ME  It can be heard on the Bandcamp link at
https://sheilakcameron.bandcamp.com/track/theres-an-old-sadness-in-me-2

Sunday, 19 July 2015

COULD THIS BE THE ONE

It could be that I have spent more hours looking for a book in which to make notes and write songs than I have spent writing the notes and the songs

Over the years many have come close to what I wanted but they were either too heavy or the lines were too far apart or the edges were too sharp or they did not fit comfortably alongside the pens I usually carry - in the bag I usually carry 

Then, last week, I found the book which is featured in the image below and because this blog is about songs and images I have used it to combine a photograph and some words - as can be seen below

The words for OUT OF THE WILDS are the first to be written in the new book The photograph of Clouds over the Rockies has been superimposed on the inside cover



And with those comments I can now prepare the post which will follow this one 

Once the words in the book had been recorded as a spoken word track and left to cool for a while I felt they were in need of some companionship

Of the companions I chose one track is old and one is new  There will be more about them in the next post 

In some respects what I want to say there is also related to a search - but of a different kind The title of the post has not yet been settled but SAD SADDER AND SANE has been considered

The three tracks may also be uploaded to Bandcamp 

Friday, 17 July 2015

THE WINDOW OF THE ROOM IN WHICH . . .

One of the disadvantages of writing songs is that they can get stuck in your head and you find yourself going over words which sometimes- by putting them in a song - you had hoped to leave behind

Much better to have a song in your head that someone else wrote and which you really love  And that you would like to record. How Deep is the Ocean is that kind of song and recently it has been with me most days

I cannot recall if the song got there after revisiting a photograph of the house where I lived as a child - or if I revisited the photograph after hearing it in my head But I do remember the first time I ever heard the song 

It was being played by an older cousin on the piano in the linoleum floored parlour of my home 
I was probably about nine years old and of all the memories I have lost or have chosen to forget this one has never gone away
I thought then - and think now - it is a beautiful song 

The photograph below is a screen shot of the house and the street where I lived as a child and although the window frame (down left) has changed it is the window of the room in which I heard the song being played for the very first time


And because I was wondering if I might record it in a very simple way  - perhaps without any accompaniment - I did a search for the lyrics - although I was almost sure I had remembered them correctly 

And it was during the lyric search that I saw - as happens with all the most beautiful songs - that it had been recorded by numerous singers - and that Billie Holliday was one of them

With the lyrics confirmed (I will print them below later) I searched for Ms Holiday's recording of the song on You Tube and listened to it 
The link is https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0vEum7syn00 

It is splendid of course but of all those I listened to there were two which came close to what I had been hearing in my head 
These were a scratchy 1946 recording by Frank Sinatra https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WICzHNSiG6o 
And what I think is a superb version by Ella Fitzgerald 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7fY2EOIjeBE 


How much do I love you? I'll tell you no lie
How deep is the ocean? How high is the sky?
How many times a day do I think of you?
How many roses are sprinkled with dew?
How far would I travel to be where you are?
How far is the journey from here to a star?
And if I ever lost you, how much would I cry?
How deep is the ocean? How high is the sky?

* "How Deep Is the Ocean " was a popular song written by Irving Berlin in 1932, and can be heard in the background of the 1933 film The Life of Jimmy Dolan. The song was introduced by Paul Whiteman and His Orchestra with vocals by Jack Fulton.
The song was written at a low point in Berlin's professional and personal life, and is among the select few of his numbers introduced on the radio rather than onstage or in film. The song is a series of questions posed in succession to one another, with the only exception being the second line, "I'll tell you no lie." The quote is from Wikipedia

PS It is co-incidental that the day I began searching for the lyrics for HOW DEEP IS THE OCEAN -and listening to the recording by Billie Holliday - was July 16th 2015  And it was on the same day that I came across an article from the New York Times about her death 
Entitled ON THIS DAY July 18th 1959: it can be accessed with the following link 

http://www.nytimes.com/learning/general/onthisday/bday/0407.html